Sunday, November 11, 2007

Saturday, October 13, 2007

NaNoWriMo

So it is about that time.....NaNoWriMo - or National Novel Writing Month for you unbelievers. It starts November 1 and ends November 30. Check out the website - but basically the goal is to write a 50,000 novel by the end of the month. A lofty goal - 1 that I have taken on as a personal challenge - not once but twice. Both times - I didn't even get through the first week. This year - I am going to complete it.

You can hold me accountable.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

I'm Back! Podcasting and Blogging

Ok, so I realize that this blog has been anything but regular. If anything, it has needed a healthy dose of fiber. So, here I am with a large dose of prune juice to get this little bad boy going again.

What brings me back to writing and blogging? I guess the sudden interest in just that – blogging – and well podcasting. Working with John on podcasts and blogging has definitely re-energized my passion for blogs. I love blogging. I love writing. I am not really sure why i stopped. But I did.



The use of blogs and podcasts in ministry settings is really starting to pick up. I am not sure how many churches in the area are curently blogging and doing podcasts but I am pretty sure that it is pretty low – if any. But what a great way to connect with those that may never step a foot in your worship service. What a great way to connect with those who are a little sceptical about “church” and “christians.”

There are plenty of “christian” podcasts and blogs. The podcasts seem to be nothing more than a mini sermon – of some sort. Or jut that, parts of sermons. I am positive that i am not listening to the right podcasts – or I have been burned by such bad ones. As far as blogs go – these are definitely picking up for churches/pastors as a means of communicating.


All that aside, I think that podcasts and blogging is one of the absolute best things that St. Paul's can do in regards to content for the website and most importantly it is the best thing we can do in reaching a post-christian area. Skepticism plagues the area as people are either studying other spiritual belief systems or have been so burnt by churches that they can never see themselves ever going back to “church.” How could you ever reach them? How can you let them know that there are others out there just like them and that they have been through the same thing when you never get that opportunity.That is not even to take into account the benefits that the members of our church will get as we identify and clarify what it is that we truly believe.


I am sure blogging and podcasting is just the beginning of what Web 2.0 has in store for us. Perhaps we should go ahead and start thinking further outside of the box and look to what the future has for us in regards to the Web. Video-Podcasting is becoming more popular. Social networks (myspace, facebook) are not only the future but the right now.


Where will all this go? How will we incorporate these technologies into our church?



Well......

Sunday, February 18, 2007

1 1/2 years later......

Well it has been just that, 1 1/2 years since I last posted. I guess I was a tad inspired by a friend of mine......Micheal M. I found his blog after doing a search for his name - to find out where he is in this journey that we call life. Hopefully he and I can hook up again and catch up on all that we have been through in the last year or so.

Hopefully this is the many of future posts.


Until then....

Monday, August 01, 2005

Well the trip is decided...

Well, the trip to CTS is decided. Maybe I should fill you in a bit....

CTS is Christian Theological Seminary and is located in Indianapolis Indiana and is where me and Resa are considering going to seminary, starting in January for the Spring semester. It is a seminary that it is associated with the Disciples of Christ but has an ecumenical appeal. The goal and hope is that we will get full tuition scholarships and maybe even some kind of stipend.

The more I read about the seminary, the more I really feel it to be the right decision. I was telling Joe Bob, I don't know what it is about CTS but it really seems to be the right choice.

I guess we will see in 2 weeks....

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

A peep into the poetical mind.....

Words never straight always being turned
Every ounce of body, hair, feeling burned
Why so much trouble, why so much strife
Why must I continue in this desecrated life
The harder I try to stop, the more I begin to bleed
Plot becoming clearer, I am the poisoned seed
Left for destruction, bred for seasoned pain
Words are all that are left, the only way to maintain
Or complain, or blame, the blackened train
On its way to leave me scarred and lame

Must I continue, must I go forth?
Must I strive to prove, my self worth?
What happens if I can’t do it?
What happens if I refuse?
What happens if I can’t commit
And my breath is all that is abused?

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

States

I found this little thingy on Nomey's blog so I decided to give it a whirl to see where I "stack" up...


bold the states you've been to, underline the states you've lived in and italicize the state you're in now...

Alabama / Alaska / Arizona / Arkansas / California / Colorado / Connecticut / Delaware / Florida / Georgia / Hawaii / Idaho / Illinois / Indiana / Iowa / Kansas / Kentucky / Louisiana / Maine / Maryland / Massachusetts / Michigan / Minnesota / Mississippi / Missouri / Montana / Nebraska / Nevada / New Hampshire / New Jersey / New Mexico / New York / North Carolina / North Dakota / Ohio / Oklahoma / Oregon / Pennsylvania / Rhode Island / South Carolina / South Dakota / Tennessee / Texas / Utah / Vermont / Virginia / Washington / West Virginia / Wisconsin / Wyoming / Washington D.C. /

Go HERE to have a form generate the HTML for you.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Just a quick word.....

I am just posting a little word or two, for discipline's sake. I know I need to blog - and so I do. Things have been crazy for me as they always are. Depression, or whatever it is, has constantly plagued me. I have struggled with every fiber of my body to just make it out of bed for class, only to find myself back in bed later. I don't know what is wrong with me - like I have ever known.

Resa and I are discussing some changes in our lives. How they work out for us is yet to be seeen....


until then,

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

And it goes on......

My attempts at regular blogging has fallen....somewhat short of my goal. To be honest...which i always try to do.....anything but going to class out of necessity and sleeping....i have not had much desire or energy to do anything else.

My journey of late has been a long torturing event. i have been or am struggling over too many "big" things and it is only adding to the pressure that this depression seems to have on me. it seems to be the same stuff for me, those things that are constantly bothering me....like......ministry, spirituality, my walk with Christ, my future, my "vocation" as Merton would call it, my relationship with my wife, my.....well it keeps going....

Friday, June 17, 2005

Just another day.....

You know I think I can figure out why I stopped blogging. I have discovered that is difficult to write or share my feelings and thoughts when it is difficult to get out of bed and more importantly, stay out of bed. The last couple of days have been just that......difficult.

But life goes on.

Today, I will go and meet with the priest from the Episcopal church. I have many questions about the church as well as future ministry. I will let you know how things go......


until then

Sunday, June 12, 2005

One of those quiz things....

I love reading my buddy's blogs, Nomey and Steve. They seem to provoke thoughts and better yet are there as friends. After reading Nomey's blog (and blessings to you my brother) and about his time with God on the way to Cape.....I clicked over to Steve's blog. He had his results for one of those quizes that are so fun to do that tells you "what your theological worldview is" and so I took the quiz and here are my results....



You scored as Emergent/Postmodern. You are Emergent/
Postmodern in your theology. You feel alienated from older forms
of church, you don't think they connect to modern culture very well.
No one knows the whole truth about God, and we have much to
learn from each other, and so learning takes place in dialogue.
Evangelism should take place in relationships rather than
through crusades and altar-calls. People are interested in
spirituality and want to ask questions, so the church should help
them to do this.

Emergent/Postmodern


96%

Modern Liberal


75%

Roman Catholic


57%

Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan


57%

Classical Liberal


54%

Neo orthodox


46%

Reformed Evangelical


29%

Fundamentalist


14%

Charismatic/Pentecostal


11%

What's your theological worldview?
created with QuizFarm.com



On that note, maybe God is trying to tell me something here......anyhow, take the quiz and let us know how you did.....

until then.........

Big difference

Saturday, a couple of our former youth came and stayed the night with us. It was a fun time and we all looked forward to going to church together today. I knew that they would probably enjoy one of the larger churches in town and so we made plans to go there.....but I was going to get up and go to St. Paul's Episcopal Church for their early service. Me and one of the former youth got up and went to St. Paul's first and then to Bethel Temple.

To say that there was a difference in the worship styles would be stating the overly obvious. Of course there would be a difference in the worship styles. But thinking back, I really see the difference is not so much preference per each denomination/church but more philosophically. I would like to think that the goal is the same: leading people into God's presence. It is just funny how they attempt to do that. One through the sacred and holy and the other through praise choruses and "dynamic" preaching.

The difference couldn't be any starker. My preference have always been praise chorus over hymns....dynamic sermons with dynamic personalities over....well anything else.....commuincation and fellowship during worship over silence and reverence.....and well the list could go on. Each preference could be explained pretty simple. But things are so different now. I totally enjoyed the sacred this morning. The "repetitive" prayers/responsive readings are more than words but the echo of hearts from years gone by through today using biblical language.

And there was the "quiet." The quiet pierces the business of the world with internet access and blogging and cable television and touches to where Merton thinks a man truly lives....the solitude. My heart leaped with the silence and reverence as if I was watching a million different TV's - all the excited by the stillness. Instead of my mind wondering off and my thoughts racing, it was captivated by the "sacred" as if I was watching some horrible wreck and just couldn't turn away. No desire to read something else or think about something else or to attempt to fill my time with a million things. No....the stillness and "sacred" was much more captivating. Maybe because it had my mind, heart and soul. Wait....isn't that something in the bible?

Anyways.....there is a big difference for this "southern baptist" who has a desire now to learn the sign of the cross, buy an Anglican rosary, and to sit and talk with the local priest. Yep. There is a big difference.......

Maybe a certain "person" will still think of me as a Christian if I "become" Anglican/Episcopalian......


well....we'll see at least......

until then.......

Thursday, June 09, 2005

I hate

It's Thursday.....and I just got back from my first final exam of this summer session. The class was Intro to Public Relations. We did something completely different than what I was used to....and that is we did a group test. It was one of those convince the teacher to do it things. She agreed and we took the test. The exciting thing was that we all mad an "A" on the final which means that I will have an "A" for the class.

I only have one more day left for this summer session and then will have a couple of days before the next one, where I will have a biology and algebra class. Yipee! I hate both subjects and therefore dread those classes.

My mind is fried from the test we took. I was not very prepared (not that I have been all semester).

Which leads me to my next issue....I am becoming restless again. I am barely able to make it on a daily basis. I don't know if that is because the depression is coming and going or because I really hate where I am right now. It's not that I hate Evansville or even Indiana. It's not that I hate the university. I hate studying the things I am studying. I hate not having any sense of peace or enjoyment. I hate not having any stability in my life (which in reality, I have never really had).

I guess you could say that I hate my "lot"

Most would respond to me telling me that this complaining is vain (but isn't all complaining?) They would even tell me that its my fault or that I somehow deserve it, which maybe I do. Some would take the "high" ground and tell me to just relax and enjoy where I am in life, which I need to do.

However, none of them really solve my feelings. They get at part of it, but not really the heart.

I am not really sure why this struggle seems to be my only companion in this journey, but nonetheless it accompanies me as a dear friend would....Always there and never absent.

Damn the luck......or draw.....or....whatever.

Until next time.......

Saturday, June 04, 2005

BTW

Feel free to email me or post comments......now that I am back in the swing of things.....I would love to hear from all of you.......

A new day is born.....

Well......a new day is born. But don't let it fool you. It is not a day that is born in hope. No, it is born out of the necessity of thoughts to take shape and expression. I have spent the last, however long, striving to get to that place to post again on the Ravished blog....waiting patiently to get to the place where I can say that I was ravished again. Waiting to get to the place where everything is OK again and I am "fine" Unfortunately that time has not come. And I have realized that it might not come. I have realized that it shouldn't come. Being "ravished" implies that I will arrive. I won't. That is the point isn't it?

Until I arrive - I have to get back into this.....this.......state of expression and freedom of thought creation and articulation.

Will you journey with me? Will I be alone? Will this be another failed attempt? Who cares?

Nonetheless - it has been my blogging friends who have inspired me. Nomey and Steve - thanks for emailing me just to say hey - you guys are truly friends.

until the next time.........

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Old computers

well - i guess i will make my plea here on my blog - if anybody has used computers that they are wanting to get rid of - please send it my way. i really nead a laptop but i know that is unlikely.

anyways - look for my update on school life......


i do have some very controversial thoughts - well controversial compared to my legalist background.........


until then........

Saturday, January 29, 2005

well, here i am

life has been, well, hectic the last month - we have moved - i have started back to school - and well everything else has been crazy.

i guess it's a new stage - or phase in life. that of one who is studying social work and setting out to make a difference in the world. not just making an impact with Christ - but making one with Christ. You see, i am beginning to understand that sometimes we make less of an impact in "Jesus name" than if we were doing things in Jesus name. There is a difference and a large difference at that. The difference is this - sometimes we spend too much time saying Jesus than we do living Jesus.

think on that......

Monday, December 13, 2004

It's been awhile......

It has been awhile since I last posted. Alot of that has been due to my busy schedule - some it being that I have been contemplating the comment that was last left on my blog. I have contemplated exactly how and if I would respond. I have contemplated exactly how to phrase what it is that I want to get across to not only the person that posted but also to everyone else.

Trust me - a response is coming. Not really a response - more like a stating of what is on my heart and what I find to be true - regardless of what anyone else thinks. It's something that I have to do - and will do - as soon as I collect my scattered and torn thoughts. It may be contradicting when it comes out but I am sure the irony will not be lost.


until then.........

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Reply to comment

I feel like I should respond to a comment that was left a couple of days ago. The comment said that I was contradictory amongst other things. I would like to take a couple of minutes and reply back to that person and anyone else who might be thinking the same thing.

True that my blog is called - Ravished. True that my blog’s subtitle is “The heart longs for pursuit. A pursuit after God. To be like His son. To walk in His ways. The question is how hard will I pursue and will I pursue at all?”
There is no denying that.

It was said that my life is filled with irony - if one only knew how much truth there is in that statement. But to come to think about it - isn’t everybody’s life filled with irony? Aren’t we all just a stumbling, mumbling, bumbling ball of confusion and irony? My life has always been full of irony. The dictionary defines irony (among other definitions) as “Incongruity between what might be expected and what actually occurs” - reading that - I will definitely agree that my life is full of irony. I am expected to read my bible - to pray - to go to church - to do all these “righteousness earning” deeds. But yes I have found in the last month or so (having struggled with this for longer) that it does not “actually occur.” I feel like most of us are like that - struggling with what is expected and what actually occurs. I believe that is the great irony of the Christian walk - we are always falling despite the call to us to be holy just as He is holy.

My life has been tattered and bruised by the marks of disease. If I had to put words around this struggle, it would be Severe Depression - although there is much more to it. This disease that I constantly battle is a living hell. Like it or not - that is the truth. Although my heart longs to be ravished by God and to constantly pursue Him - the truth is that I am often sidetracked and yes even ravished by this depression and all that goes with it. The truth is that we are all ravished - by something or in most cases many things. I have been in a constant pursuit to be ravished by God - but I must admit that I have never been solely ravished by Him - nor do I think that there will ever be a time in my life where this will be - until the day that I am finally with Him.

Overboard? Yes that does seem to be a vein that runs in the body of this ragamuffin. Fortunately, this going overboard can often be a blessing. But you are right - it can often be a curse as well. I have a heart that says its either all or nothing at all. That is my heart - full of passion - whether it be right or wrong remains unseen.

Pursuing God. Resting in God. I am not sure that I see the problem here. I don’t see these as two enemies but more like two long time friends who often come along with each other. When I say pursue - I am not sure what is going through your mind or what you interpret that to mean. Your words make me think that you think it is a bad thing. I sure hope not - it was Jesus who said follow me. It was Jesus who said all that shall come after me - it was…..well I could go on. My heart must constantly pursue Him and His glory - just as I am to rest in Him and His everlasting love. I don’t think resting in God is wrong - I just don’t think that it is all there is to this God thing.

I am sorry that my life is a contradiction and full of irony. But it is. It will probably always be that way. However, I do believe that if you would look just a little closer - you would see your life full of irony as well. But then again - maybe not.

Until then.........

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Dreams......

Well thought that I would leave you with another one of my "works" - until next time


At times - dreams
Seem
To fade
Like the closing of the day.
They come and go
Easy to stray.
These elusive dreams fade
Away
Leaving them for you to recreate.
There is no way
To make
Them remain
So you’re left to pretend
That they will never end.
You begin
To befriend
Thoughts to comprehend
Of when
You will again
Formulate more dreams and then
Contend
To defend
The new hopes that are born within.
You fear that they too
Will flee from you
Then what will you do?
Will you pursue
To renew
Your views
Or choose
To lose
Or refuse
To continue.
Dreams can be such a funny game.
They can bring fame
Or shame
Upon your name.
You wonder if they are in vain
And ascertain
Whether disdain
Is part of the gain.
You try to maintain
Some kind of vision
That keeps you wishing
And reminiscing
For dreams that have been
On your mind every now and again.